Observations

Phil dunphy is so funny!!

Tea shop

I go to a Tea shop. And as I am about to enter, I see two boys, in filmy style starting from the bottom. And I see that one guy is wearing half jeans. And I look at him and see that he is the guy from my college who always used to wear such half pant jeans. So I say- I knew it was you. Somehow he takes offence, which I don't really understand. But he tried to ignore me and I am thinking maybe that was not the right thing to say to a guy. 

I remembered some more ( other disjoint) parts of my dream in the morning but I can't recollect now. It is just Gone. And the post that I remembered is embarrassing in a way.

Movie shooting.
Two brothers. Trying to leave from body guards. Smaller brother says he is elder And Later Those Guys Don't Believe The elder brother. These guy get an auto. They late become me and silky. And I am trying to drive the auto but the brakes are not working properly. I am trying different stuff to make it work. Johnny also there but he seems in bad shape. As if dragged along with the auto. Then I am thinking that we are living in the old Delhi house where there us lot of open space. But still Johnny does not go out. And I am wondering why.
School reunion. I am trying to hide. One of classmates has become some big shot and giving speech.

Killers

Gang war types people killed others. Mom killed a guy, another person killed a guy. MY RESPONSIBLY responsibility to save them in court. Very irritated. Then. I realize it is a dream and I feel relieved. Another dream i am traveling to Delhi. Meet like her bag .sonali .

We go to a guest house types, home stay. And there is a family there and we try very hard to impress them. So we take lot of gifts for them.

Back from flight

I am going someplace by flight. I sit in the flight and suddenly I get down and start walking with my luggage. After going some distance I realize that the flight didn't even start and I didn't even reach my destination. So I go back to the flight. Every body in the flight looks at me, as of asking for an explanation for my exit. I tell them that it was by mistake. I was in a dream and I thought that flight has landed. It does not look like a flight actually, more like a mini van with very few people. There is one hit from my college ( ajay bansal) and he finds it very funny. But then he says it's okay. Let's play some game. And tried to teach me some convoluted game where I've person will say something and you have to say something funny on top of it. It is not even funny. And I am thinking myself that I know better games than this one.

Suddenly I given a task to find out flaws in a train and somehow I am doing that by taking components out. Then I am in Delhi and I want to buy some things like gudpatti , rewadi etc. And I am trying to find shops. I find a ship and I am telling him the list, and then I feel like having a cigerette. And I ask him for wills gold slims ( I don't even know if such a type exists).

School with lake

School. A jungle with a lake. Hostels too. . We are supposed to run around the school, I guess for physical training. But students are lazy and some of us are hiding in forests while some are in their rooms. There is one girl disha who is her room on ground floor watching movies. School manager comes for inspection and sees her and goes bonkers. She starts screaming at her and hitting her. Listening this chaos, the girls on the top floor ( Priyanka Shukla and another) get cautioned and they leave from they room by backside stairs. However her shoes are outside so she s comes to pick them up but gives some smart excuse to the manager. And I see all this and start running around the campus which is quite big and sparse. But it is beautiful with lakes and trees.  I am running and I also get wet in the rain and I and I am just having fun and dancing. But then somebody comes from the other side and I get conscious and start running.

And suddenly I am in an apartment complex and talking to a school friend. Also I am wondering how come I am taking to this friend because I never even talk to him on Facebook. But both of us are taking very nicely. And them I realize that he is in the next apartment only and I can see him. The phone connection gets dropped so I shout and tell him that connection gone, let's talk later.

Neha had come to my house. And she is leaving and due to some reason, I am not able to walk her to the gate , so my sister goes. But then I suddenly  realize that I need to go too and I run. My sister is almost coming back and I ask her to call Neha to stop her. I go to the gate and I see that she is taking a reverse. And then I shout to grab her attention and my sis also calls her. So she stops. But when she stops, I see sheer is actually not on a car but on a bike. And it is very cool and classy, not like those over the top showy bikes. And I am totally in awe. And I ask her how come she is riding a bike. She tells me that it is more convenient. I like the bike so much that I also want to buy it. But I am scared that my parents will not allow.

In the meanwhile there is some sort going on in which there are two teenage kids- girl and boy. And somehow they are also trying to hide from the school manager. And they have small rabbit holes where they can comfortably hide. But I feel sorry for them.
Then I ask them to come to a pale with me. It was a small palace before but now last in runs. Apparently the owner is my relative and had sold off all good stuff and bought himself a new apartment. My family is also there. So I ask then also to sleep there and I realize it is my brother and his girl friend. And then I am telling them to sleep in different rooms. And I am also thinking what if they sneak out in the night. but my dad will take care as he wakes up many times in the night.
My mom is then telling me that dad is supposed to travel by train but he will travel in health quota and will get a good bed and a doctor will also be there. And then she is saying that chacha is so good that he is coming to our house by flight for only two days just yo see dad . dad unwell.

Student exchange program

I am going in a Bus ride, apparently go for a long time . we spot a tees shop ahead and stop for refreshments. There are scrappy lots of students in the bus, from my school or college . So we are actually going to a Czech school  for a covert student exchange program. Covert because apparently the govt does not know about it and the school does not want to tell also, don't know why. There are a lot of students. Plane lands in school. Some kind of exhaust in front of the plane. Two girls standings on front, acting unafraid. Then the plane tries to make them afraid by moving here and there little. Later the plane changes into a great bunch of birds. School tour. Good books. Teachers are handsome. One pair affair. They call us for class. Two students not coming. One rabbit actually. The rabbit changes to a girl. And she had brought some kind of object which looks like a photo frame but is a computer which can be used to create 3 d models. And she creates the model of the school.

Arun- going to office. Fence and trees. Bird looks like a dog. Shoo. Cover face with towel. Escape. Cross fence. Stop following. Must be a dog.
Lying down in bedroom. Doctor standing nearby. Asking questions. Telling about some condition. Arun agreeing to him. Doc says that the condition is because he is agreeing. Catalyzation. Puts a clip on knee. Container in top of the clip. Pit some drop which goes on the body and something comes our. Observation by hearing the container. Asks for meditation. Writes stuff on wall in many languages. Dad also there. Ask mom dad what's happening. You were disturbed in the sleep. So called the doctor. Sofa - saliva spilt. They said dad did o it but I am not sure.
Shruti- calls and asks last name nirmala. I have apparently referred her grit Google. Travel allowance if she leaves the job and comes. Do you know what the job in involves. Grungy job. Suddenly Walmart labs office. Even can go together. But I will have to go Lynch r with her. What about Anupam. Conversation is happening in Neyvelli guest house.

Office cabin. 

Horse ride

I was playing a real life game with a friend from iimc. And I was supposed to ride a horse in a room around a table in circles. And initially it was difficult for me but she told me a trick to ride.
And then I was in a village where I am a very poor girl and maybe a little mental. My husband is also very poor and he goes to another person ( I guess a money lender) to ask for some work and money. I am looking up in the sky and trees and suddenly I find singing very funny. And I start laughing in a very weird way, very loudly..

Jedi

Yesterday: there is a plane like in star wars with two sears- one for Jedi fighter, another for driver. And i am wondering in my dream.
New clothes.

Dance video

This would be the weirdest dream I had. Apparently I am looped in for a dance video along with 3 other tall girls. I am taken because I am tall apparently. And we are supposed to dance for a pop song video. And there is shilpa shetty also for a small part as a guest dancer. And there are 2 short girls also who are playing mother in law of the 4 girls. And 2 of my office girls are those. And I am totally confused as to why I am doing such a thing - money is good apparently. and then I am thinking why they have taken me because I am not like the other skinny girls. Then anupam kher comes and tells me it is fine. And I am like okay.
In another tangent, I am a disabled person who moves on a wheelchair and I am participating in a disabled people competition. And I am like on a roll, taking my wheel chair everywhere. And I later on find myself on a road where my mom is also there and she is telling me that dad is also limping. And I see my father across the road and my mom has crossed the road and give to his side. He is angry on some thing with he her and they are suddenly fighting. And I go and ask them both to shut up.

In another tangent, one guy from my office is processing the payroll of some USA employees. But to my great shock, he is actually making count of dosas , which are supposed to be for the employees as part if their payroll. And he cuts a small piece to taste and finds it satisfactory. I am drooling with greed for the tasty dosas. So I tell him that since he has already cut some party of the dosa, that cannot be given to the employee, so I can eat it. But he tells me that I have already had my breakfast. And I feel very embarrassed. So shrewd of him. He takes the dosa himself and starts eating. But I am not able to control myself so I still go and take a bite of the thing from his plate on the context of tasting. And then I am suddenly filled with guilt so I device to lose weight and I see a treadmill.

Following Cat

Dart before yesterday: I am in my old home and it looks kinda deserted. And somehow there is a cat which is c constantly following me everywhere. I am just going about and I suddenly see that a neighbour uncle is sitting in one store room. And I get scared. And then I just ignore him and go about. The cat is still following. I try to go here and there but the cat won't give up. so I finally go to the toilet. And the cat is there also but it fells in the pot. And I think a little but then I finally flag that little thing down. < violent > In another dream, I am in Delhi and going somewhere. And there is a sports stadium in between where I see Jaya with her family. And just by seeing them I get this feeling that they come there every Sunday. Don't know how. Out felt like that I have seen this dream earlier as well. Or I am just imagining.

Czech

Today, i dreamt that my cousin guddu is relocating to Czech and he had asked me and Arun also to relocate. And strangely, arun has agreed also. And i am wondering what work will these guys do there. Arun can still somehow manage but that cousin cannot. Will the Czech govt give him a policeman job? Anyways, there is a parallel story going on in which there is a hero (Matt Damon) and an anti hero ( like Moriarty) . and the anti hero is after the life of the hero and hero does v various kind of stunts to stay away from him. Also suddenly we are also in an exotic location ( I assume Czech) in this story and going around. We actually take a bus and a can and we find a bird with feathers wide open. I initially think it's a toy bird but later realize it's real and apparently dead. And I feel bad and her confused on where to put it. Anyways I put in on a muddy footpath area.

Kidnapping

I had a bad dream today.
Apparently Arun is very ill, so his sister comes to visit him. But some guys kidnap her. And they call for ransom. Apparently there are 2 guys , one of them is a guy from my office. And then they ask us to come to a place. That place is big, like a hospital or big sports complex. There is mcD and KFC also there. They ask for 99 k as ransom which I find strange. They could have asked for 1 lakh, I think. We see their car and follow them. We park our car a little far away and on the way to going to the place, we saw their car. So I get angry and I remove the air from their 2 car tyres.
Then we go to the place but they don't bring anybody. One of the guy, main bad guy, has come to collect the money on top of the building.  Somehow I push that guy out and he falls off.
Then we somehow get hold of the kidnapped, who has changed from Saravana to a small child, which I assume is my brother. We run down the stairs fast and take a bus to the parking spot.. And get into our car..

Holiday with snakes

We (me, Arun, silky and others) have gone to some place camping or for holiday but that place is in the heart if a jungle and there are lot of snakes. We try and keep away from snakes. We saw some small snakes also and tried to run away from them. I saw a pit which also had dead cobras, the size of anacondas, decorated in a religious fashion. We are staying in a guest house types but then strangely some kind of chaos happens like riot or earthquake or something and we plan to leave. We pack our bags and leave. The path is very pretty and I want to capture the same in a camera. So I use silky s camera ( which is actually lost now).
Then we come to our home. There are some school friends of mine. I ask them how they are and what I'd the purpose of their visit. One guy tells me that he left his job and wanted to just roam around. So I tell him that's great.
Then my father is also there and he tells us ( family) that we should not worry even if he gets sick. He will be alright..

Hiding

I remembered a dream that I saw.. I was going somewhere and I saw my manager and super manager.. And I went and his in a construction building.. But they came to that building.. For picnic.. I could hear them talk but I was afraid of coming out, for god knows what reason.. But then they were talking about about some change that they need..

And then 1 of them says that I will get the change from Deepika. And I was like how.. And she came to my hiding spot .. And I was flabbergasted. I was thinking that I was spying on them. But the truth was that they knew that I was there. I asked her how she knew . and she told me that she saw me running. How embarrassing. :-$

Phantom

School leave for one week- I am I'll I guess. Another guy, he is showing sign off becoming a vampire. In parallel, a big v family, one ghost amongst them who kills at night by changing appearance. Then there is a discussion between some on who is this . one huh is suspected and also his aunt. But another hug shoes some photo as proof which shows that aunt can also fly and change appearance but she is good and she was trying to save them from from other flying phantom.
In school, I go back so teacher asks what about the other guy, when he will come. I say he should come in 1-2 days. There are speculation within students why hew is not coming. So i say that there are some supernatural things which cannot be explained but all other children make fun of me. I go to a I've cream shop with MD and sooraj and One guy orders omlette in eggs (beaten) another orders an ice cream sundae with the scoops- choc, mango, cream with sugar on top. I am confused what to order - both look tempting, after much deliberation I order the ice cream but only two scoops.
Next day  the other boy comes, and brings back my shawl which I had lent to him.

Quora

In today's dream, I go with my cousin brother (who we don't really talk to) to one of his friends house. And his friends seem reckless types. But there is a guy who is kinds of studious types. And I start talking to him. And then he makes fun of himself and then I realize that he is actually antariksha bhonsle from quora and I tell him that I am a follower of his and I like his answers.

Killers

Naseeruddin shah. And somehow he is the Father of his mother. Maybe through Theatre- acting as father if his mother.  I am In Delhi shop and suddenly realize that there is something wrong in the house attached to the shop . so i close the shop from inside  But still there is a lock outside miraculously, so if someone checks will think that I am not in the shop. And then i see through key hole in the house. 2 villians- along with shah, Anupam kher also. And there is anushka sharma as my sister. They put her on a cot and tightly tie her around . and they are waiting for me to kill actually. I get very very scared. Then I send a message to everybody in my list to call police at my address- Rz 6A. But the villian also gets the message. Apparently he is also in my list. Dam. And he realises that I am hiding in the ship. And he looks straight at me, through the keyhole!. Randomly, I realize that  i an no longer in the shop behind the door rather i am hiding behind a cot. And then they start shooting at me. One guy tries to come near. I hit him with the cot and take him outside the shop using the cot, which of apparently open. People also come. I ask them to go inside but warn them.
Another dream : some kind  of competition with many Europeans and a Chinese and I am called to give them done confidence and lecture types. I tell the Chinese to be open and learn etc.
Another dream: there is a boy who must be 12 years old and he is holding a baby and traveling to Europe and says- long story, If you ask him about that baby.

Birthday

There is some change of food place arrangements maybe in my office. Some high funda restaurants and ice creams shops have come up which look very posh and are quite expensive.
It is my birthday apparently. Birthday gift from silky.. A handmade hearing card which says that I am the only person because of whom she is not able to fish swimming first.. ( how is this possible. None of us know to swim).

Foreign Killer

First scene: a guy (protagonist) is waiting for bus, but the place that he is waiting at is very deserted and there are no buses coming. Also, there are auto drivers driving in circles around him. Kind of frightening.
Scene two: some how the guy changes to me and auto driver changes to a guy who is actually eating with me and my mom at our house, and we are pretty sure that we did not invite him. Suddenly he becomes very scary and starts taunting us and frightening us. We realize that he is actually a foreigner. And he is apparently angry at Indians in general but wants to hurt/ kill us.
He is talking in a major Don type fashion, and laughing ina scary way. While talking, he enters a room in my house , kind of a store room. I run fast and locks him from outside. But there is a window which is not very strong and one if the bars are missing. Also he is unperturbed, still talking in same way and laughing. Both of us are scared. So I ask my mom to try and get help, check where dad is and ask neighbours. Meanwhile this guy tried to come out . there is a stem rod nearby which we pick up and hit him with it in on his head. He slows down but still laughs. He seems unaffected.

Action

In today's dream, there was another dream inside the dream. I first dreamt that there are done police guys. And there are some villians in joker masks but the weird thing is that there are some guys in the police team also with Joker masks. So the villians Change one of the joker of police team with their joker. And that rat joker kills some police men. However the main police guy finds out that one of the joker is fake. But instead of removing the makes and finding out the game, he just shots down all the jokers in an execution type encounter. At this point I wake up and realise that I am in office and my manager is also there. And I somehow know that she also had the same dream. I find this very amazing. How can two people have the same dream. Then I think maybe I am a Taver'n like Rand in wheel of time and that is why I am able to influence the dreams of others. Or Jayne my manager is a taver'n. Only when I wake up finally, I realize that I was having a recursive dream. But seriously,  Sleeping in office?

College

Apparently silky was trying to get admissions for engineering college. She got through one but the last date of admission was remaining. And we were worried how we will do that. Next day my uncle and aunt came to our house in their car. We were both sleeping, Mr and my sister. My aunt woke us up and sacked us to get ready quickly. We were brushing our teeth while roaming around all over the place. When we got ready and went out to get into the car, we found out that Chacha is also there. The next challenge was how to fit every body on the car. So I was stabbing people. It was a innova and the were only two seats in the back. I did some tactic and made 3 seats and asked mom and silly to sit with Chacha. Although I didn't sit in the car but I somehow still reached the college with them. We reached and saw that ankur is already there playing football. And apparently he also studies in that college. Although that college looked like a village school really. Then me and silky meet sonu . he is apparently studying architecture there and I am surprised. Then he starts from  crying and tell us that he does not understand anything but he is staying there because my dad asked him to study .

Wrong turn on Scooty

Yesterday: i was at my aunt s house which surprised me very much since we don't really talk to them. And also the aunt and uncle looked a little younger. My mom was also there and it felt weird. In another scene, me and my mom went with Ankur on his scooty which is difficult. How can three sit on a scooty. Anyways Ankur takes a wrong turn and ends up on a road which is blocked from all sides with walls and there is a policeman directing traffic out of that. We started shooting at him for taking wrong turn. And then we try to do about turn but it is stuck. Late we suspect that we might get caught buy some policemen who were sitting in a booth outside. So Ankur calls his friend for help. I was thinking that the friend will take a long time to come since he does not live nearby but he comes within minutes. That too walking.

Football

I was Called to school to play football. So I was running in the playground. I was actually nervous and thinking why they called me of all people. Section B boys were trying to irritate me and I fight with them. Then suddenly I was outside school gate with some other kids sitting on the ground. And I was also thinking why I am there and not playing.. There was a small kid sitting with me. And there was a villain teacher whose husband's sister was that little kid. This teacher wanted to kill this kids. So she sent people to kill her. But i saved her. After this I go back to the playground and play. But the interesting thing I'd that I am the only one playing.

Leave

Me and a friend of mine from office plan to go to a holiday to a special place on leave for 3 days. And we are going via Neyveli. So I have planned to finish up all work in neyveli before leaving to the other place.
I ask my manager for leave but she refuses saying it is very little notice. so I get angry and annoyed.

Exploring lands

I am in some kind of kingdom where we  traveling, and there are lot of elephants there, in all sizes. And it seemed at one point that the elephants are of stone, some carved, but then I realized that they are actually moving.
The elephants were in different sizes but mostly small child elephants.

It felt like I am on an adventure, exploring new places, vast expanses of land everywhere. And a group of adventurers. Although now I don't really remember who all. But I have a feeling that I am with Rand, Moraine etc.

Dog who eats grass

I am Living in a unknown House in a village kind of environment. I have a Dog who eats grass. I have lot of grass bundles such look like coriander in my aliyah but I realize that the grass is getting old and dry. So I go out for a walk to get fresh grass but I get lost in the village and am trying to find my way back.
There is a parallel story in which Hrithik comes to sing. Due to some circumstances, he is apparently forced to sing. But when he starts it is very good. He sings very well, a medley of three songs. I somehow don't remember the songs now but it seemed like popular songs. He also tries to improvise the songs.

"My mom is currently staying with me.."

Dreams are weird

I read on qoura that the brain actually synthesises and analyses information and memories while in sleep.
So maybe that's why we see weird dreams connecting random people and places together. The interesting thing to note is that the dreams are generally populated with common people we know and common places. I see my family, friends, my home, school etc.

Anyways I seem to have forgotten the dream I had today but I remember that I did some kind of violence in this one too. Very weird. Why am I so violent in my dreams. Since I am so calm (?) In real life, such dreams do seem totally weird. Maybe they are not supposed to be analyzed.

My dreams

Not figuratively but Literally. I had already started to document my dreams in an app on my phone. Now I am going to write it in my blogs. The app does not let me download it and I am scared that I may lose the posts later on. Not that I will lose anything of human significance. But still..

Yesterday's : Dinner with friends. Cam also. Talking to Raman. Accidentally freese horse. Horse weak. weak Tiger from nearby zoo. Attacks horse. Runs away. Tiger tries to attack me. I confuse him with a newspaper. Then Arun catches the tiger with hands on the neck. Then i Catch the hands/ limbs. And then arun leaves and I kill the tiger. This is obviously not going to happen ever.

Rules of the Game

Dear E-diary,

I have decided to start blogging again. And, fortunately I have even decided what not to do this time [Twice bitten, once shy]

1. No more candid-personal blogs
2. No more self-condescending posts
3. Less bullshitting

Yours Truly.

p.s: For the record, I have completed my MBA from IIMC [No flunks!!] on time :D. Waiting to start my job from 24th of May.

Earliest recollections of my life [?]

The faintest recollection of my earliest days which I can still remember is of the two neighboring families on both sides of our house. Though one family still lives here, the other moved to another place long back.

I just remember calling them uncle & aunty or tina ki mummy/papa. In those times, in our neighborhood, you just dont call people by their names. You dont call them - Mr. Negi or Mrs. Sheela.. you just call them 'the gharwali family' or bhaisahab/ behenji/ ajju ke papa etc.. and that is why I only remember the 3 kids' names- tina, ajju and gunnu with whom I used to play hide and seek when I was really small. However, I do remember that whenever my mom used to go out, she used to drop me at their house which i liked better than mine. Aunty used to cook good food for us, let us play in the sun, with dirt and never complained to my mother. Tina's papa was very funny. Quite opposite to my own dad. He used to make fun of my dad's eyes as they were really small.

I remember that once tina's uncle came to their house and he brought a new thing- chewing gum. He blew a big bubble in his mouth and showed us. However, when we asked him to let us also try, he warned us to never try it as it contains the meat of a cat and can be dangerous to children. I did believe that for a very long time.

Their family was a good friend of ours and a good support but sadly, they moved and the other one stayed on. I have no idea how and why our families started fighting but I know that we used to be friends long back when I was a really small baby, when my parents had just started their lives in this place we live, when there were very few houses in the colony, when we had the only hand pump in the neighborhood and they had the only TV.

Apart from these, I also recollect that my mom shaved my head in class 2nd which was very embarrassing, to say the least. One of my classmate made fun of my name, which made me cry and plead to my mom to change my name to 'meenu'. I thank her and god that she didn't. I also remember that I had a group of friends who used to share their lunch boxes and I used to cry in my heart when I had to share my gaajar ka halwa.

Rishikesh Adventures - Oct 5 2007

Oct 4 :

Metro Station -> Shadipur Metro station -> Senthil -> Show gifts -> waiting for arun -> Auto -> ISBT -> Bus - > again, bus change -> seat near the window -> Bhoot Story -> Bhoot calling -> more stories

Oct 5 :

Rishikesh -> bus stand -> auto of 7 ->lodge to keep luggage -> one small room + bathroom of another -> dirty ->toothbrush + change of clothes -> Paranthas for breakfast -> go out to the rafting place -> try to find pratibha's earlier rafting guy -> all in vain -> Another rafting guy -> 2200 for 7 -> reasonable enough -> treat

The amazing roller coaster ride on the jeep -> gear up -> get down to the river and the raft -> fill it up -> photo session -> Neha's pink jacket -> exchanged by khurana -> Get on the boat -> amazing rides -> Rapids -> Getting into cold water -> clinging to the rope -> Trying to go to the other side -> unsuccessful -> Ap is already here. :) -> Zor laga ke haiyaa -> artificial beach -> stopover -> birthday bumps

Rafting trip over -> Lost my watch and ring :( -> Rafting guy shows me my broken watch -> snatch it from him -> :( -> Consolations -> Walk to the market -> Buy stupid stuff -> get lost -> popcorns -> Chotiwala -> lunch -> again stupid t-shirt shopping -> Laxman jhoola -> taxi stand

Discussion about what next ? -> confusion -> Haridwar or neelkanth waterfall -> waterfall wins -> 10 rs. ticket -> Yatharth asked to show ID card -> painfully long trip upwards -> stories of leeches -> pratibha not feeling well -> aashoo first to climb -> a small swimming pool -> Nature calls -> again trip downwards -> climb a mountain -> behind the bushes -> climb down -> very steep and risky -> still alive -> go back to the top -> amazing time ->photosession.

Go back to the hotel -> pack bags -> haridwar -> sleeping beauties ->Submit bags in the cloak room -> stomachache -> roaming on the streets -> market -> Restaurant -> no food for me :) -> Ganges ->limca -> Sulabh -> Bus again -> birthday celebrations -> hard cake -> gifts -> flutes -> Happy birthday songs -> Bumpy rides -> Reached Delhi on 6th morning -> arnd 5 -> Wait for metro -> Go home.

Farce

Oct 19 2006, 06:51 PM

it seemed as if i was reading someone else's blog.. kinda felt like putting lots of cow dung on the person who wrote all this dung..but discrded the idea.. it wud be really very awful to pick cow dung wid ur hands.. sometimes, i seriously wonder why is cow dung green in colour?hmm.. makes sense..they eat lots of green leaves na..thats why.. but we ..okay lets not get into that. tongue.gif

suddenly, the whole world seems to be very beautiful wid cows n cow dung included...waw, i hv finally gained my spirits n am totally in my mind..(for a change).actually, in retrospect, i think i was kinda very nervous n frustrated over the fact that i have to do so much work.. all notes to copy, lab work to be submitted, assignments to be done..that was the reason i was acting like a dumbass. laugh.gif

generally, life is to live.. or in better words, to enjoy..but wat the hell do we do? we get up to rub our asses on the classbench (n the canteen chairs) n then scratch our heads at the end of session( we got marks.. actually, we dint get marks).seriously, the whole 'enjoy life ' thing is a farce in my case..or else , i think so..these lab asses (now promoted as lecturers) dont let us live...yes.

our whole course is a big joke..

this woman calls me n tells me about this preprn course for CAT .. how the batches hv already strted n i m late n i shud join as early as possible n s***.. cunningly, made fool of me n got my email id also.. damn confused i am..shud i prepare or not? was solving this puzzle game n got out at level zero. mellow.gif

now this devi samaan lady tells me cow dung is murky brown.. thanks dude!!

The Fest

Oct 1 2006, 10:39 PM

now ..i hv kinda recovered but still my neck is paining wen i turn it right..actually right down..heehee..rain dance was soo much fun at resonance.. in the after noon , i was kinda cursing the whole dullness of fest n the amazing crowd wacko.gif ..but in the evening.. attended some musical event and dance competition.. n the participants made me laugh like maniacs..uncivilized aadiwaasi. heehee.. the performances were scintillating, literally ..haahaa !!

we made these out n out nonsense videos....i hate people who r too talented..why??? u cant be soo talented, i mean..why the hell r u not like me? why dont u dance like idiots? sing like jokers? act like fardeen khaan laugh.gif ,why cant u be not creatiive, not funny, ultra boring .. not wonderful.. am i praising u? oh s***.. i dint intend to.. now dont get very excited.. it was a small joke ..heh.

the project.. i hate the very word..i hate it.. hate it .. i hate projects.. i hate u project..eh eh .. my heart is getting heavy...buhuhuhu

i am soo confused..getting kinda irritated.. so much i hv to do this year. do some data structures..learn c, learn c++..maybe vb, maybe .net.. sad.gif

i hv to somehow manage 70 % this year.. how am i gonna do this..? sad.gif

i m getting very anxious n irritated at the same time.. how the hell am i gonna do all this?

okay.. i hv to concentrate.. inhale some fresh air.. and get out of this stupid chair..
bye.

Midsems

Sep 13 2006, 01:28 AM

here i was sitting cutting some apples n eating them tooo.. and my sis enters the scene n very seriously tells me that i need to get more serious wid life.. i mean , am i not?.. pehle to, i thought she must be either joking or just plain irritaitng me, as she always does.. but soon, she started on wid her lecture. how shud i behave in front of people, why shud not i laugh out loud , its indecent laugh.gif .. n why shud not i speak widout thinking.. ohh god! its very mushkil i think..

she was telling me that i shud make myself more calm n composed, i dont have to really go n worship somebody if i like them.. i dont have to tell people how stupid n confused i am.. neither is there any use of making funny comments or cracking boring pj's.. all in all she was just making me all the more conscious.. i was getting soo nervous.. n yes, so true she was. told me how i shud keep aside some part of my day , kind of few mintues before sleep to assess myself n my actions throughtout the day..wat all embarassing things i did n wat not to do.. make action plans how to handle such kind of situations n how to present myself as this lovely,intelligent, 'i know all' lady..for this, i have to read some self help books, research about different eras n cultures, different architectural periods, painters like loenardo da vinci ,picasso or vincent van gogh.. ;)

Irresponsible

World! the big, fat ugly world with lots of irritating geeks hanging around .. no respect for untalented people in this world..silly world..

No respect for somebody who are just soo pissed off with all the hullabo about getting thier first job and for that, they are supposed to burn thierr ass off.. ghissing all the time. i mean, get a life dude.. whiling away the precious moments to fight for a gruelling life, either your manager eats your head out or you eat his brains without spoon.

Why cant i be just as irresponsible whole of my life..?? i dont want the bag of responsibilities .. i already am suffering from backache these days..

hell with responsibilities and this world ..

aah.. i am feeling soo relieved now.. pouring out all your frustration on the world .. and then relax!! ..it actualy works for me..

aah.. so i am going, my last weekend's assignment is waiting for me ..

Poem

every other guy writes a poem in his/her blog.. not to mention the blookers who r soo wella that they write books, novels etc.

why am i soo wella
sitting here total akelaa..
so irritating, such nonsense
want to eat a croissant
a word which i can never pronounce
and, then proudly announce
and above all writing shit
lost all sense, n humour and wit ..(as if it was there ).


Its high time i shud get a life... every store is out of stock :(

Liquidity and N-series

Wat the hell is liquidity and why is the hocum about the hedge funds?.. and why is this bloody thousands phase UP elections all over the newspaper and why not cant these lawyers do more than moral policing..

The lower judicial has pledged to sudhaaro the 'bharatiya naari' and not let her kiss a foriegner , not let her wear a saari wiht flags and to garnish all this, ban her working after 8.. totally ridiculous, one brain of mine says. the other doestn give a damn.. why shud i care if 100 bloody shivsainiks fodofy the 'big bazaars' in maharashtra.. if some priest is beaten till his bones becomes haldi powder... why the hell wud i care..

I was far more happy wen i dint knew that the system called society also contains the entity newspaper. Aaarghh.. i feel like vomiting my intestines out wenever channels like aajtak, star, zee and party come to my mind with thier breaking news and crime reporter series. bloody shitty sucking hell..

Newspaper make me sick with thier analysis of general elections, MCD elections, falaan elections, dhinkaana elections.. i mean, who in the rite mind wud care? and, if even these umpteen no. of elections also dont suffice, they start analysising the UK elections, the france elections, the scottish elections...

I want to get all the Nseries nokia phone and stamp on them..., please haa.. not becoz i cant afford ( yes, i cant).. but becoz they r soo bloody big . they make me sick wenever they come in the newspaper ads.

I dont understand how come this finanace minister keeps on revising the cement rates.. i mean, who the hell , on earth is going to teach me anythign abt finance.

helllooo ... am i alone.. yes i am. bloody all knowing, extra educated people.

Fantastic four

The time is always eagerly awaited. But this time, the bundle of tasks,assignments and 'responsbilities' outweighed the wait, i think. Just cudnt find the luxury of breathing and waiting.

And now, the day has come and the moronic female is struggling herself out of the bed..gets ready and is climbing the stairs of the metro station.She reaches the metro station and realises ki she dint even bring any gift, not even a chocolate. However, our hero also dint bring anyhting.. so, she feels happy :) ( yes, she is a devil).

long travel tires the body but it cant even touch the heart which is leaping with joy and is just poorly able to control itself .

The day went as if it is so normal, so real and so ordinary..as if we are always together and used to each other.. no attempt to make good use of every minute , just going on with the flow, walking the path, the pair of feet are taking us.relaxed, at peace and yeah, very much together.. as if we always were.

but yes, our heroine feels a little guilty wen our hero suddenly presents her a beautiful card alongwith his 'genius art' piece.

The other day was equally tiring.. the useless heoine always cribbing about the weather, the long road, the traffic, the sun, the wind . and, as usual, our hero bears her wiht a smile and a hand pulling her all the way.

The old fort , though, dint match the standards of humayun's tomb.. but,togetherness is always fun :). At least had 5 litres of liquid and still, the throat used to get dry. Felt like a couple wen the old fat woman was chasing with her long stick..dont know, wat her problem was.. cant we even sit and breathe.

The boat ride was perfect, never wanted to get out of it. The best 'fiends' were just sitting and they were having fun. :)

Any movie was never destined to be watched.. :) but, the iced tea was far more lucky at chabar in the oxford bookstore.lazing on the couch , made for ultralazy like us, and reading a book on the most heinous criminals in history.. Jack the ripper, dr. jackal, child killer and tribe...wow, wat a perfect date. :)

RTV bus

Sep 9 2006, 06:07 PM

i was coming home by this horrible rtv bus.. i cant even stand, such low roofs.. waise i generally prefer the phatphatiya( yellow auto.. heehee) but i cud not get one.. so , i boarded this funny thing..

but the driver was soo stupid, he used to stop at every few metres.. to wait for passengers, howvever they were nowhere to be seen..so, the passengers were getting really irritated.. so wen again, the driver stopped the bus, one guy got really irritated and made a funny remark.. and whoa.. i started laughing.. laughing like maniacs.. stupid maniacs.. uncivilized stupid maniacs.. wierd uncivilized stupid maniacs....i laughed , n laughed n laughed.. biggrin.gif for sometime, other passengers also gave me little company but soon retracted to their cool composed self.. n i was there in that whole bus.. laughing..in that silent evening n that silent bus..haahaa.... and just in front of me , there was this old man, who was not at least amused...he looked at me with a straight face.. and ME? i just laughed louder..i just cud not stop it..

howevr, i somehow managed to give my mouth a break.. and this old guy looked at me.. relieved.. he must be thanking god..haahaa.. tongue.gif
and i told Arun abt this n he was very amused n found this whole incident funny.. biggrin.gif

Munnabhai

Sep 11 2006, 11:21 PM

watched munnabhai-2 today...and now i m seriously thinking so wonderful are the thoughts of truth ,love n non violence..though, looks as if only limited to the ideals of people from gandhian era.. but yeah, so relevant today also..

truth always triumph.. cant say if its true.. but yes, its always right..we, in our life, must have told a hundred lies, consciously n inconsciously..we lie becoz we fear..

hey i also saw this film 'roshomon ' in spic.. wonderful movie..here also every character tells hundreds of lie to cover up thier own vanities ,fear, greed.. to show themselves as brave, upright n innocent.. it was a pwerful potrayal of human nature..

even i must have told many lies to cover up my mistakes or weakness.. i remeber this incident wen i copied the teacher's signature on my sanskrit notebook.. n how i was slapped( smackkk..).. obviously my work was late.

we speak many lies soo smartly that they dont even seem to be a lie..we r watching this wonderful movie on the comp and a friend asks if we can go to the market with him/her.. and we simply tell them how busy we are, how many assingment we have to submit n how many notes we have to copy...(heehee.. i m the incarnation of the devil itself.)

aah, but honestly, i think i m going to imbibe some sense of truthfulness ..yeah, very mushkil.. i know, but let's try.

no more sweet lies.. if i hate this guy's breath.. i m going to walk staight up to him n tell him on his face.. .. biggrin.gif ...and i m going to walk to this teacher n tell him how i feel about him.. how much i hate him .. and to any person who talk s nonsense, i m going to tell him wat kind of a ultimate bore he is.. cool.gif


oops.. i think its better to keep queit than to speak a lie.. wacko.gif now i am confused..okay i needto give time to my mental faculties to think over this.. i am going to think over it for few days as usual.. lets see wat happens after that.

The Bunk

Sep 14 2006, 02:01 AM

wen i was in 12th, we used to bunk a lot n go to playgrounds to loiter around n play volleyball .. and i used to hate going to labs.. we had this awful chem lab a**.. used to stink a lot.. and MAN!! he was irritating.. even the word irritating will feel insulted..

however, we bunked this chem lab n went to play volley.. and unfortunately, a surprise inspection took place..manager,director and the principal along wid a photographer(for photo shoot for school magazine) enterd this lab n wat did they see.. around 6 or seven students in the lab whereas the total strength shud have been 22 for that lab..they were surprised and so was our chem teacher..the lab a** had no clue.. teacher lied to them about the less attendance n all..n then, he started searching for us..

he came towrds the playground.. n some guys saw him coming n there was total commotion.. evrybody running here n there.. stupid boys started runing towards the girls toilet..heehee.. but soon realised that n marched back.. and i ran off through the playground to the nursery block on the other side n hid behind the door..poor guys were caught..after some time , i came out from my hole.. n these girls from the other section told me that the chem teacher knows i hv run away n he is not going to spare me.. so, dejected.. i walked towards the chem lab.. as i reached there , i saw some 7 or 8 guys in the position of a murga..ooh..n i was the only girl.. n then this teacher came out.. ''arrey , aa gayi tum.. chalo, line me lag jaao''..''sir, but main murga nahi ban sakti''..''to theek hai , murgi ban jaao''..ohh god!! such mental harassment..i was aghast .. ''no sir, main ye sab nahi karungi''..'' to ek taang per haath uper karke khadi ho jaao''..u cannot imagine wat kind of punishments i have got..and then he went inside.. while i was still wondering if i shud do that or not , he came back with a strong cane with 10 cm. diameter..and i was on my one leg wid my hands up..

after half an hour or so, wen around evry guy from our science block had seen us in that pitiful situation he came back.. n told me that he has told my parents.. n handed out this piece of paper where we had to write that we bunk classes , dont take teachers seriously, are very irresponsible and deserve to be severly punished.. damn him...so, we wrote it .. took half an hour or so..and now, we had to get it signed by the parents.

and the story doesnt end here.. actually the saddest part is that i chewed this letter on my way home , in my nervousness n anxiety.. n wen i reached home.. it was in tatters.. so , i had to tape it up.. got a fair amount of scolding .. had a tough time getting those signatures.. and the next day.. i bunked the english class.

Cycle adventure: one of them

My two wheeled endeavours can be aptly summarized as : ridiculously short and wild in nature.

Even the humble bicyles i have posessed have been the victims of various accidents of varied degree of conciousness as well as unconsciousness. The unaware person walking in the road has many times got the not-happy side of my hit and trials.

However, the incident which keeps on bubbling up out of the deepest portions of mindcrap is the one involving the 7th class GK exam,the 50-50s, the Mt. Carmel school bus, the standing tempo and the two 'happy go lucky' people on earth. Balancing the cycling act with eating 50-50 biscuits is surely a tough act, particularly when you are asking for the 50-50s from the person behind and a bus is coming from the front with 1000km/hr speed. Unfortunately, when it is realised that the distance between earth and heaven ia only 1 m away, our heroes escape the death only to crash into a standing tempo. The smiling 'Mount Carmel School' logo wheezes past them.I looked back - Sonali was smiling as well as trying to give an angry look to me. She showed me her hand, some powdery thing was there.. She said - look, what you did to my biscuits. I smiled. Then, these people realise that they have been doing this converstion still sitting on the cycle. What is wrong, it shud have fallen ,given us bruises and also excuse for skipping the GK exam the next day. We got down. But, the cycle was standing as if stuck to the tempo..Poor guys tried to give it little jerk as if it is a ghost. It dint move. Later, it was realised that the iron wheel has somehow got stuckk in something of the tempo. Got it free. And moved on..

Calvin and Hobbes

Yes, our own kaalbeen and hobss.

Dust Bowls

Oh my God .. this is the first time i have added a picture and i can see this huge code above.. bloody coders.. they have a code for everything. < I am in my best of manners , right now>.

No, this pic is not about this pic.. waise, by this time, i have forgotten what pic i uploaded.. :) {yes, i am channelising priyanka chopra} ..i have this pic AND millions of others and now, i have no space at all.. i vow to delete all of these .. Where am i supposed to store important shit ?

I hate computers.. i have made this statement pehle also but i hate charles babbage.

Random Chomsky

Noam chomsky who is a philosopher and a linguist is also a widely known political activist and a active critc of the foreign policies of the superpowers of the world,like the U.S.
In his article,'a world without war' , chomsky says that we are living in a world of conflict and confrontation,and it can be called the "class war".The power centres and the general poulation stand face to face ,opposing each other,in this conflict.

The powerful wants to reign over, to absorb more power and ,to fuel this ambition,it plays various games to retain the dominian. It keeps on trying to snatch power from the genral population,to suppress them,to dominate them and to exploit them. The writer condemns the various issues such as increasing militarisation, destruction of the environment and assault against democracy and freedom- which are a result of the selfish practices by the power bloc.

He urges the people bloc to be diffident and to oppose the repressing activities of the power bloc.He cites the example of the ongoing conflict between the World social forum and the World economic forum at Davos. As the 'interantional giants ' discuss matters relating to the grave problems confronting mankind,as described by them, the other part of the world is laughing on thier face and the mockery.

Noam chomsky' style of writing is very critical,and it shows rebellion and contempt towards the loathsoem show of power and urges the general population to fight for its rights, it freedom and to fight ,so as not to be suppressed by the power greedy.

A day before an exam while in NSIT

How can you improve urself.. gave my bro to write 50 points on this.. seems like i need it myself and also an instructor to kick me if i dont.

why cant we live without bloody exams.. i hate them. and.. EXAMS.. i can live without you.

this irritating female wants to write hundred pieces of writing just a day before her exam only.. why?? .. "irritating, she is".

Exam sickness /fever/ilness.. no no no, i dont suffer from that.. i just hate exams and this sick feeling of not studying .. why cant i be that bookloving ghissu who doesnt have a life apart from huffman codes and maxwell's equation.

Dont want to think about future.. cant believe i am expected to make decisions , potentially very big and very disastrous.. i want to become very small and go to the same old school where i can go wearing the same old socks and the torn shoes , the skirt with ink marks and the shirt wihtout monogram..to become , once again, the 'wat is care' parasite.. who needs a stick and is never expected to do big things.. i dont want to do big things.